So the weekly check in’s went bust, and admittedly so did NaNoWriMo. In all honesty, I think I have a pretty decent recent.
On November 1st, my Grandmother, the woman who practically raised me, passed away. It’s been coming and honestly I thought I may have pulled out of NaNoWriMo before it even started because I have been caring for her through her palliative care, alongside working more than full time in a very stressful and physical job.
On day 1, I managed to get 1100 words written. I wrote these sat at the end of her bed and they are utter rubbish. I know it and I dont care. November is not for editing.
She passed away on the evening and since then my document has remained open on my laptop, but I just haven’t worked on it. I have gone to, I have sat and tried to think about what I want to write next, but then it comes to writing and I stop. Emotionally I cant seem to attach myself to my writing at the moment. I want to do things that I can do on automatic, and writing is definitely not one of those things.
Today is the 19th, just slightly over the half way point and unless the muse takes me on some magical adventure, where I write 10,000 words a day and I just don’t need to stop. I know I am not going to win NaNoWriMo this year.
And I am okay with that.
I understand that this is about challenging yourself to write, but I will not force myself to do something for hours every day that, at this moment, I am not enjoying.
I have just started back at work, I have started watching a lot of documentaries, and honestly, I have started reading a lot (not like I haven’t always read a lot).
Over the next 11 days, I will attempt to get some writing done. I am not going to set myself a target because at the moment, I know I don’t care enough to try and meet them. But I do care about doing stuff that I enjoy, including writing blog posts for on here; hence why I am doing daily updates on my Tome Topple Round 5 adventure. I am enjoying writing reviews of the books I am reading and writing notes on documentaries I am watching on how to change my life.
So whether I write on my project, or generally just get words that I want to get down, on to a page, I will make an attempt to write.